Why I Got Married Again?
I have to explain my life in brief for a reader to understand why? Many of my students have listened to my stories of life randomly. I never told them in a chronological manner but by the context of our conversations.
To take a partner in my spiritual journey. I have started travelling on the path of yoga from the day I have memories. It may be due to the great influence of my mother who taught me stories that are embedded with ethics and religion. When I started questioning the meaning of life my first attraction is towards rationalism, not atheism due to a lot of reading. But I am not happy and there are many questions unanswered. One day I have come across a book written by Swami Abhedananda, a disciple of Ramakrishna Paramahamsa. Surprisingly, I got answers to many questions I was asking people for years in the introduction to the book. I didn't become religious ( even now) but started travelling fast on the lane of spirituality and philosophy. I wanted to experience God within ten years and called it Project God. I travelled a lot and met so many spiritual and religious leaders but not satisfied. But few saints told me that I don't need to be so restless as God will send the right person if I am serious about seeking him. Of course, I am not seeking any personal God.
I read so many books on different paths of yoga. The more I read the more I got confused. From childhood, I came to know so many stories about cheating in the name of religion and faith. I have always been sceptical. My yoga teacher knows this and he clearly told me that to experience the cosmic consciousness there is no need to have faith but faith makes the journey faster. Even I am sceptical about him for that matter about every religious or yoga teacher I have come across. He is aware of my attitude and never tried to prove that I am wrong. He simply said any person who is travelling on the path of spirituality is a loner and should not be a blind follower. Life is so precious and it will be wasted if we have to start again and again. We spend so many valuable resources mostly time. Once he made me experience the blissful states by teaching the finest practices I started believing him that he is truly a great master. When compared to others my learning was many many times faster.